Knowledge without Wisdom

I had always dreamt of owning a super car or atleast a luxury German car like a Merc/BMW/Audi but then a year ago or so I decided not to buy one of them as they are gasoline guzzlers and thought I will buy a regular hatchback, SUV or maybe buy a Tesla when they introduce it in India.

Recently I was looking at the launch of a new version of one of my favourite super bike and I thought to myself how I may never be able to afford it. A couple of days later my sister showed to me an advert of an Audi S5 and A5. I looked at it a couple of mins and it remembered me of the car pictures I used to collect when I was a kid. I’m almost 29 now, I’m in that phase of life when everything I dreamt of is starting to look like they are impossible.

I did a bachelors in Visual Communication and been working as a designer for almost 8 years now and then it hit me 8 fucking years and what have I achieved!? I have been constantly juggling between working on from one thing after the other, never pursued anything for longer than 1 month to 3 months. AR, WebGl, 3D animation, 2D animation, HTML development, game development and the list goes on. Design is the only thing that I have been doing continuously and I can confidently say I’m good at it.

The first five years have been a breeze without much noise, I grew up to be one of the young and bright minds in the team and enjoyed all the attention and the work I was doing. I was in a couple of relationships and breakups, the breakups were a huge blow and even then I was confident that someday I will be someone famous and live a life I dreamt of. The breakups taught me so much about how to deal with loss and how to empathise and made me realise about so many other important people in my life and how I took them for granted.

I don’t regret what I did in the last 8 years specially the last three, without them I will not be what I’m today. What I regret is that along the way I have gathered so much knowledge from the experiences I have had but never developed the wisdom to apply the knowledge.

If you are wondering why the heck nothing is working out the mind keeps tricking you into a 1000 distractions, the key is to be conscious about the distractions, identify them, dodge them and keep walking towards what you want. The heart always knows what it wants follow your heart… whenever the mind creates a distraction pause for a moment see if it’s aligned to what your heart wishes and decide. Learn to say no to yourself and others when you have to. Life is too short and may pass by too fast if you don’t start doing.

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